Andrew Marmion Tuam, Galway, Ireland
To the Core of My Being
Having faith is not for the faint-hearted. It takes guts to have faith. It takes the willingness to get dirt in my mouth as I falter and stumble some of the time, fail some of the time. But having faith means having a solid diamond of self-belief and belief in a loving God at the very centre of my being. I have legs and feet to lift me out of the dirt and soldier on.
Jesus said, “Once you set your hand to the plough, don’t look back.” That reminds me of what St. Augustine once said, “We ask for help and act as though it has been given.” My mum used to say, “Son, God gives you the spade - you do the digging.” So there have always been believers in life who have followed this principle.
I am working on that belief and determination on a day to day basis. I’m not perfect and never will be, but that doesn’t matter. It’s not about perfection, it’s about progress one day at a time, having the courage to persevere.
I love the way Hill describes that faith can be achieved through auto-suggestion. I truly believe in the ability of the mind to create its own reality, but I need faith, a wonderful state of mind if I’m to continue on the road of self-fulfilment. What’s my biggest obstacle?
I know it’s my emotions which I find challenging in life, especially around people. The spectre of self-pity is always whispering, “Feel sorry for yourself – you deserve it!” Thankfully, my response is usually, “Heck, no!”, but I have to catch it on time. I wrestled a lot with it yesterday; it was like an inner churning in my heart. Coming on the conference call last night with you guys really helped lift my spirits. We had a bit of a laugh with Brian before the call which set the tone. So, thanks to you all.
Additionally, can I use auto-suggestion to work on this stuff even though I’m highly sensitive? I believe I can, and it takes faith to believe what I tell myself when I am hurt. Thoughts and emotions are bedfellows. Each thought has an accompanying emotion which can influence what I choose to believe. I find this difficult but am willing to learn and stick with the growing pains, too.