Norna OBrien Godfrey, ON, Canada
When I read this chapter it made me kind of sad and frustrated at the same time. I have known about these principles for years and have listened to books about it, listened to people who have used it and succeeded in becoming wealthy. I understand that everything in this world is energy but I am finding it hard with my work schedule, the hours I am putting in and how I feel when I get home to do the things I know are necessary for me to do, like meditate, dream, (I have yet to make my dream board), say my affirmations every day or even get them posted for me to see every day. I have a very difficult time dreaming and imagining myself with money. My son said to me, "Mom, how do you expect to be able to dream when you spent 29 years with a man who was controlling and kept you in debt up to your ears the whole time?" I never thought about that and is probably the biggest thing that is blocking me from being able to figure this out. I don't know, not a doctor, but it made a little sense to me when he said it to me.
I have tomorrow off, so I have made a commitment to myself to take the day and start doing some of these things. I know the meditation is going to help my busy brain and I know I have to just do it. I am finding it very difficult to have the self-discipline I need to do what needs to be done. I am certain that the longer I stay with this group and the more I read and learn from this book and associate, the better I will become. I am often at work when the phone calls are, so I need to add listening to them on my list of things to do also. Maybe I am expecting things to happen too quickly and I have to just get rid of this "get it done" attitude I feel I have. I am not sure why I have this attitude because I know that to make things happen, it takes time. I have read that it takes 66 days to create a habit. It doesn't sound like a long time when you say it, but my brain is thinking "Oh wow, how am I ever going to keep on track THAT LONG?". It is almost as if I am in a constant battle with myself or I have an unruly child living inside my head.
All I know is that I am blessed that Tuula Rands reached out to me and introduced me to Michael and this system. I have a few really good books like this one and have tried to read them, but cannot seem to get through one. It is very comfortable for me to read these chapters one by one. It is easier for me to concentrate on what the chapters are saying doing it this way. Thank you so much for your mentoring; it is really appreciated and so are you, even if I don't say it as often as I should.