Norna OBrien Godfrey, ON, Canada
As I read through this lesson, I was reminded of all of the times I have tried things and instead of "when things get tough, the tough get going", I was not persistent enough or more than that, my "why" just wasn't engraved deep enough in my brain or my heart.
It seemed so easy when I had conventional businesses. I knew I had to get up, do paperwork, get orders shipped from the internet, go do shows and make sure stock was ordered to make sure we kept our title of Canadian Distributor for our products and even to make sure our vending machines were cleaned, serviced when required and stock purchased and bagged prior to doing the route each month. I have a routine that I know I have to follow for the job I have, but I feel like a "robot". As I read, I feel more and more that I have so much to learn and so much to work on but not enough time to make it happen. The biggest thing I have to master is my "why". I know in my heart that I DO NOT want to work for someone else. I want to work from home again, help others achieve their dreams and not have to depend on someone else for a paycheque, I want the passive income and not have to look at my bank book to see if I have enough money to even go for a long drive on a nice day, no particular plans, just pack a lunch and go somewhere we have never been, to get to Spain and New Zealand, to be able to help my kids get through tough times easier, to leave a legacy for my kids and grandkids. It was always my late husband who would give me the list of steps I would have to take and the things we had to do in order to make our businesses run smoothly. I don't think I wanted that responsibility as I had enough doing all of the office work for the business, filling orders, booking shows, making sure stock was in and out in a timely manner, looking after the house, my husbands appointments with doctors and my father's needs. Who would have had time to dream of a better life. I would not want to change the time I got to spend with my father, but there are other things I wish I had put my foot down about. That is all in the past now and I have to come up with a different plan of attack to attain the life I want. I just wish it didn't seem so far out of reach.
Taking what I know in my heart that I want and move it to my subconscious where I know it has to be for me to get where I want to be, somedays feels like something unreachable. I have been listening to some meditation videos to try and get my mind to slow down. I find myself exhausted when I get home from work and my body so sore, it is very hard to concentrate on anything I know I have to do to change my circumstances. I start thinking of all of the steps and things I have to do to train my brain and I am always thinking I have to get this done soon and I end up overwhelming myself and accomplishing nothing. I tell myself all the time that if others can do this, I can too. I am determined to keep working as I can on this transformation from the "worker caterpillar" I have always been into the "butterfly" free to have and do the things I want, able to breath easier every day and not stress about getting to my next pay cheque and to help others be free also, from whatever they want to be free from.
I am grateful for this organization and the guidance I have.