Margi Starr Springfield, Ohio, USA
Chapter 15: The Six Ghosts of Fear
Fear of Ill Health.
Yesterday I had a routine doctor’s appointment. I so dreaded this visit, that I had postponed it twice. Reason? Simply because of an extra fifteen pounds that I've gained since my last visit in November 2014. Plus, I would be pressured to get a tetanus shot, flu shot, and pneumonia shot. It wasn't my idea of fun.
When I heard the words, “Step on the scales, please,” I took a deep breath. Yep, there were those extra pounds I had fretted about.
Once inside the exam room, my blood pressure was taken. Hmmm... After the first reading, the nurse raised her eyebrows and then started pumping the BP cuff a second time. “It's really high; the doctor will want to take it."
“Oh, this is not going well..."
When the doctor came in, I was fully prepared for the discussion about my fifteen pounds, my crazy BP, and all the injections she thought I should have. I had spent way too much energy deciding I’d accept the tetanus, but decline the other two. After all, I eat fairly healthy, and represent a wellness company. That should count for something.
But there was no scolding about my weight gain and no discussion about the shots and tests that are now required protocol. (That's another discussion for another day.)
Instead, there was LOTS of discussion about my Blood Test results. Some numbers had skyrocketed. Literally. All the possible causes were given to me. Some very serious. My family history surfaced in my mind like a stranglehold. Not good. Fortunately, the third taking of my blood pressure brought a sign of relief to my doctor’s face.
Before leaving her office, I was being scheduled for ultrasounds as the first line of diagnosis.
I walked into the doctor’s office worrying about fifteen stupid pounds and a tetanus shot. Now I was walking out to my car engulfed in the Fear of Ill Health.
The "What if...????" mindset can play terrible tricks on you. It can paralyze us and cause us to miss everything else around us that is whispering, "You're going to be okay."
So what have all these Think and Grow Rich lessons done for me?
They’ve taught me to keep life in perspective. I'm God's Child and Fear of Ill Health is not going to derail me. Positive self-talk, prayer, and critical thinking will help me know the next steps to take. Being part of a natural health, wellness community is certainly going to serve me.
One of my favorite sayings is, “Your adventure begins now.” Some adventures we'd like to avoid, yet those can result in the greatest blessings. Because Thoughts are Things, I get to choose how to frame each and every experience. The good and the not so good.
So here’s to the next thirty days! Clean eating and healing foods. Another blood test in 30 days will be my incentive and my proof that all is well.
The added bonus is that I’ll be able to get into my skinny jeans again.