I talk to myself. Out loud. It drives Nathan nuts because he thinks I am talking to him. I have said, "Well, stupid." Depending on the situation, I may have called myself idiot as well. A flashack to hearing, "What were you thinking?" I talked myself into thinking I was wrong, ineffectual, and down-right dangerous. I told myself these things probably a hundred times a day, I talked myself into believing I wasn't worth much. I imagine many of you have experienced the same thing.
I wanted to change. BUT HOW? I saw my husband changing, so I started to do what he was doing. At first, I had a difficult time in changing my SELF-TALK. I sometimes became frustrated.
Hill states, "Do not become discouraged if you cannot control and direct your emotions the first time you do so. Remember there s no possibility as SOMETHING FOR NOTHING. Ability to reach, and influence, your subconscious mind has it's and you MUST PAY THAT PRICE. You cannot cheat, even if you desire to do so. The price of ability to influence your subconscious mind is everlaqsting PERSISTENCE in applying the principles describes here..."
EVERLASTING persistence? Wow! That's a long time!! The key is baby steps and building on your successes. It takes a very short timr to the point that your SELF-TALK beomes easier and easier until you don't even realize you are doing it. Your SELF-TALK is on auto-pilot. You don't believe this is possible? You think is silly? You just keep talking to yourself in negative terms. You don't want to rock the boat. As Dr. Phil says, "How is that working for you?"
Hill continues, "...You cannot develop your desired ability for a lower price. YOU and YOU ALONE must decide whether or not the reward for which you are striving (the 'money consciousness') is worth the peace you must pay for your effort..."
Do I want to focus myself more and more to live in joy? Oh, YES! I urge you to join me on this journey.
Thank you Michael and Linda, Nathan, Bob, and everyone for your love and encouragement.