For many years my ex husband has asked me to get a job outside of the home. Every time I would think about the prospects of getting a job outside the home I felt sick to my stomach.
The biggest issue for me was the time commitment away from the house. I always thought if I got a job I would be giving up my dreams because there would never be enough time for me to work my business and a job.
The truth is I was afraid of the unknown...yes those details of applying for work and having to do the interview after all they might ask me a question that I do not know the answer to. Then if I did get hired how would I pay for the new clothes for the job and how would I find the time to build my business because I would probably be way too tired at the end of the day.
All these thoughts kept me from contributing to the financial needs of the family. I hid behind my fears and allowed myself to live in poverty.
In 2016 I divorced my husband and began a new life in Washington. Later on that year my ex husband's financial situation changed and the alimony was very little but he paid what he could.
So it was up to me to solve my finances. My daughter suggested I would be happier if I earned my own income and ran my own budget instead of waiting around for someone else to take care of me.
Ugg....here comes that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach again. This time I was really backed into a corner and had to take action.
After many days of thinking about what my daughter suggested, I went online and applied for a job at the local grocery store.
I waited for them to call and I did not hear anything for 2 weeks so I applied again. Two weeks later I still did not hear anything so I applied yet again.
Two days later the phone rang and I was asked to come in for an interview later that week.
For some unknown reason the sickness I had been feeling before was gone and I felt excited for the interview.
The only detail left to work out was what in heck was I going to wear to my interview after all I had only twenty dollars to my name.
Later that day I found myself in the thrift store down the street where I found a pair of pants , shoes and a blouse all for fifteen dollars. I was all set!
The day of the interview came and I was really excited because I knew I could land this job and I did !
Only one more detail left to work out..... how in the world I would make time for building my business. This came easier because I was hired to work Thursday thru Sunday which left Monday thur Wednesday to help with the grand kids and work my business.
The lesson for me was action takes away the fear and solutions always pop up when you need them.