Jenny Paisley Corrales, NM, USA
Chapter 2 Desire
I have been lucky in this life to have been a very self directed person. I arrived with a love for horses, and a talent and a desire to be the best at it. I made a plan, and directed it to the T. At this time in my life I knew nothing about this book, or Napolean Hill, yet I some how followed his processes for what I wanted to accomplish. As time goes on and situations start to beat at your plans, and your dreams self doubt starts to creep into the open eyed beliefs that you had. I got sucked into blaming myself for things that were not always in my total control, and judging the outcomes that should have thrilled me, as average, not as good as I wished. This just drew more insecurities and doubt to my life, until the life I loved, became a chore. Law of attraction, that wonderful law, continued to bring what I was feeling to life.
This circular thinking and doing became my normal, and I was walking thru my life with doubt and self angst. I still was talented, and had great animals and people to work with, yet it wasn't good enough. Why?
It was my belief that if you try harder you will get it, no pain, no gain. The strife and struggle just kept it from being as fun as it should have been. The pressure raised, the problems increased, and boom!
I had a medical emergency that changed my life.
Hill States: "You may as well know, right here, that you can never have riches in great quantities, UNLESS you can work yourself into a white heat of DESIRE for money, and actually BELIEVE you will possess it."
I grew to not believe it. I always judged myself as lacking, and not good enough to get it. I was lucky enough to hit the wall, slide to the floor and work to pick myself up.
The take away from that experience is you can talk the talk, and walk the walk, yet if you do not believe it, the wheels will fall off. Be honest to yourself in your self talk, and do not let your fear get the best of that little voice inside your head.
My journey is far from done, and I learn new things all the time, thank you for this experience.